I am typing this while I wait in the lobby of Sagebrush Theatre, the sun setting outside the glass wall to my right, painting the prominent hilly skyline a deep orange. It strikes me that I should sum up some of the things I learned during my two and a half week stay here. Because isn't that what a blog is for?
1. Living In A Hotel Room Is Good For A Marriage
You may not agree, but there is something about living in a place where there is maid service and a 24 hr hot tub (that also isn't up to you to clean), that takes a load off of a marriage. Plus, hotel rooms are sexy. There is something about a hotel room bed that screams HAVE SEX ON ME. And hotel-quality pillows are to die for. Yum.
2. Eating Healthily While Living In A Hotel Suite Is Challenging
With a capital CH. In this particular, tiny kitchenette, there was a very small fridge, an even smaller freezer, two burners and no stove. Counter tops are nil. I actually found myself trying to mince garlic ON THE BED. Which, as you can imagine, sucked. Plus, to really cook anything that tastes good, you need spices & seasonings, oils and vinegars, marinades and sauces. These things are very expensive to buy from scratch, and even if we could afford them, rarely would fit into our miniature fridge. All these excuses seemed to be the seductive reasoning behind ordering pizzas. Or going to restaurants. Dangerous.
3. Living Out Of A Hotel Provides A Great Opportunity To Eat Simple, Raw Foods
I'll let you in on a secret. I did a 24 hour Banana Island while here in Kamloops. My friend Ashely was the inspiration - see her Banana Island journey and info here - but it was the damn hotel living that gave me the true impetus. It is so high maintenance to try and make home cooked meals sans an actual HOME, that the thought of just eating bananas for a whole day seemed like a huge relief. Am I skeptical about fruit based cleanses due to the huge amount of fruit sugar that they involve? Yes. But I've been told that when you use fruit as the SOLE ingredient, your body uses those sugars very differently and it isn't at all like if you food combine. Anyway, I'm always about experimenting, and this seemed like good timing. So, I did Banana Island, went through a big cleanse (aka pooped my face off), felt my body sorta hit a reset button, and didn't have stress out about cooking in my non-kitchen. I liked it. For 1 day at least:)
4. Kamloops Is A LOT Like Moose Jaw, Just All Pushed Up
Sure, there are a few more hippies here, but really, all you gotta do is go to the mall or walk around downtown and you can see how similar the two cities are. Cowboys and ranchers and young men that all look proudly blue collar. People are friendly, you see older people everywhere (honestly, when you hit big, urban centres, seeing seniors out and about is rare), and young women are all holding babies on their hip. Of course, there is a lot less snow and all these big hills (mini-mountains?), but being here made me feel very much like I was at home. And that was a nice feeling.
5. Shameless Is A Disturbing Beauty Of A TV Show
Often when I know I am going to be somewhere that I'll be isolated, or not know many people, I try to find a new TV show that I can hook into, so that watching all of its seasons can become a sort-of purpose. My Kamloops TV obsession became the American version of the show Shameless. I was immediately impressed with the writing, and the acting, even though I knew watching this particular show would potentially scar me. it is like watching a horrible car accident - you realize you should probably look away, but you can't. I spent most of the time with my right hand clamped over my mouth, my head shaking NO back and forth, and my eyebrows in a perpetual WTF? furrow. Don't get me wrong. I highly recommend it, but if you are the child of an alcoholic, be warned. It ain't pretty.
6. When People Say That Using A DSLR Is Easy, They're Lying
The other, less embarrassing, purpose I gave myself in these two and a half weeks, was the challenge to FINALLY use the new Canon Rebel that I got for Christmas. The thing has proven such a source of intimidation for me, that it has been sitting on the floor of my office closet, untouched, since Dec. 25th. My guilt and shame around this has been HUGE…I mean, how blessed am I to have a family that would buy me such an AMAZING gift? I was a big shit for being too cowardly to learn how to use it. So, I told myself that with my Jan/Feb contract over, and nothing else to do in Kamloops, I would tackle that damed Rebel. And I did. And I have. And I do. But there is nothing easy about it. In fact, it remains such a enigma to me, that even yet, I feel afraid to pick it up and use it. I've never been chilled out about being terrible at something, and it is SO frustrating to take pictures that are blurry or screwed up, when you know what it is you are TRYING to create! I would still like to manifest classes or a workshop or a one-on-one tutor. But at least I took a baby step, and for that I am proud.
7. Loss Is Inevitable, But The Universe Abundant
I have had some friends going through some pretty hard stuff lately. They have been facing loss on a large level, and my heart is broken for them. But I've also seen manifest, before my very eyes, the universe's abundance and supply. Just when I think something is never gonna happen, a door opens. Just when I think the money is totally gone, more comes my way. I remain faithful to my gratitude practice, and love having the time to allow myself to spiritually sink my teeth into all the good going on in my world. As for my friends, I continue to send them love and feel complete empathy, because we will all take our turn going through the fire. Not a matter of if, but when.
8. I Love Tap Dancing. And Directing. And Teaching.
Teaching Leon to tap is one of the largest joys in my life currently. I loved to tap as a little girl, and totally forgot how much happiness it brought me when it became linked to how I made my living. But seeing Leon go from pretty-darn-bad, to a-hell-of-a-lot-better, to almost-impressive has been SO rewarding. Funny how much clearer it is to me that Directing/Choreographing/Teaching is where I feel the most alive. If Leon is my Eliza, then I am his Higgins, and I am loving every minute to it.