Plan B

This Facebook thing is a phenomenon. Really. It far out weighs the effect myspace ever had on my life. I am literally bumping into people on this site that I haven't seen in over 15 years - people I truly never thought I would see again. Everybody is on this thing...old friends from Moose Jaw, summer camp friends from my pre-pubescent years, college mates with whom I had lost touch, exs, elementary school friends, lindyhoppers that passed quickly through my life and even family members! I love this site! How could this be anything but positive?!

As for my love life...well, that truly is anything but positive. The obstacles that have presented themselves ten fold have successfully discourged me from being involved with the afore mentioned mystery man. If Jax and I were lacking the 'fit' in terms of ability to communicate and really 'get' each other in a mental, spiritual way then this other guy and I are lacking the 'fit' in lifestyle choices. He and I have the passion down pat and couldn't be more on the same wave length in terms of personality, but the way he leads his life doesn't jive with mine. In fact, many of his life choices are distinctly opposite of all that I believe in. And even though I thought I could over look all that, I am now pretty darn sure that I can not. Must I choose one or the other, or will I meet someone someday that clicks in all areas? Perhaps that is too optimistic, but I am willing to take the risk and find out.

Thing is, I see this guy every day. And my lust factor for him is as huge as our connection. So, now I must try to stay strong in my resolve. Which could be easier said than done. My plan is to enjoy all that is wonderful about being single. Work on my art, read more books, talk solitary island walks like I did last summer, flirt with whoever I want, stop stressing about birth control, spend time with friends, write, work, be blissful. Well, that's the plan anyway.

And if all else fails, I will live vicariously through facebook.

We'll call that Plan B.