Monday, October 27, 2008
Another Man's Shoes
Some days I wanna be anyone other than myself. I wonder what it would be like to be someone who could shave all their hair off and still feel sexy? Or what life would be like to be the parent of infant triplets? How about a born again Christian with total faith that I had it right and everyone else was going to hell? Sometimes I dream of being an electrician with an obsession for model trains. Or a perpetual student surrounded by the solace of echoing hallways. Perhaps I could be an alternative rock musician who showed up late to everything and never took notice of the dirty futon I called my bed or a Canadian delegate working overseas and involved in highly secretive government initiatives.
I see my blessings, I do. I make money doing stuff that thousands of people dream of doing - singing, dancing, acting. I am a home owner, I am fit and attractive, my marriage is a total joy, my family is supportive and honest, I've got money to spend and tons of free time to myself. But haven't you ever had those days where you wonder what it might be like to trade lives with someone else? Oh, the things one could learn from having the ability to jump into someone else's life for 48 hours! It might make you realize just how good you had it...or that people are generally miserable...or that you are not alone in the many thoughts that occupy your mind on a daily basis.
I'm probably just feeling melancholy from rehearsals. They are truly exhausting and feel infinitely long. I have only myself to blame. Knowing what you don't want doesn't get you anywhere. Until I figure out what my DEFINITELY WANT list is most everything I do is going to feel exhausting and infinitely long.
THAT'S the person whose skin I would like to jump into - just to see. A person who knows without doubt or question what it is they DEFINITELY WANT to do. I wouldn't even care if they were currently doing it, as long as they were clear what it was.
Until then, I will keep on trying to enjoy the good stuff in my own life. And if anyone out there would like to come and take over my life for a 48 hour trial, let me know, and we'll set something up.
I see my blessings, I do. I make money doing stuff that thousands of people dream of doing - singing, dancing, acting. I am a home owner, I am fit and attractive, my marriage is a total joy, my family is supportive and honest, I've got money to spend and tons of free time to myself. But haven't you ever had those days where you wonder what it might be like to trade lives with someone else? Oh, the things one could learn from having the ability to jump into someone else's life for 48 hours! It might make you realize just how good you had it...or that people are generally miserable...or that you are not alone in the many thoughts that occupy your mind on a daily basis.
I'm probably just feeling melancholy from rehearsals. They are truly exhausting and feel infinitely long. I have only myself to blame. Knowing what you don't want doesn't get you anywhere. Until I figure out what my DEFINITELY WANT list is most everything I do is going to feel exhausting and infinitely long.
THAT'S the person whose skin I would like to jump into - just to see. A person who knows without doubt or question what it is they DEFINITELY WANT to do. I wouldn't even care if they were currently doing it, as long as they were clear what it was.
Until then, I will keep on trying to enjoy the good stuff in my own life. And if anyone out there would like to come and take over my life for a 48 hour trial, let me know, and we'll set something up.
Posted by Krista J. Konkin at 11:16 PM
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