If You Don't Have Some Enemies...

...then you must be doing something wrong.

I've always liked that quote. I have historically had a long line of enemies and seem to make enemies as consistently as I make friends. A long time ago this bothered me, but now I embrace it. I am an out loud person who wears my heart on my sleeve - both when I am happy and when I am not. You'll always know where you stand with me and if I don't like you or what you're doing, I won't hide it. This doesn't mean I am confrontational, just that I am not invested in sugar coating things in order to make them more palatable. I try to be kind - and often I am - but I will never pretend.

Why am I saying all this? I dunno...tough rehearsal tonight, I guess. There is one person in particular who I have been as patient as I can be with, but who has now worn me down into frustration. A cast is like a sports team...if one player doesn't pick up the ball, the whole team suffers. That is why it is called a team. You're only as strong as your weakest link...and the perfectionist in me gets frustrated with weak links. I guess it makes me feel powerless, like no matter how hard I work, if this other person doesn't work equally as hard, the scene/song/show fails. Soooooooo scary and such an awful feeling. Perhaps It has entered my path to help me work on letting go of control, since there ain't nothin' I can do about it at this point.

I just don't wanna stink in front of an audience. And I want the show to be excellent.

We open a week today ... or should I say yesterday since it is already after midnight? Oh God, six days. The next little while is gonna be a bitch.

Kinda like myself ;-)