In Case You Were Worried

In a few minutes, I intend to go into my sweet, zen bathroom and run myself a steaming hot bath. But before I do, I want to say this, to anyone who might be wondering:

I am profoundly happy. There is not a doubt in all of my being that I am marrying the right guy. This isn't a marriage of convenience and it isn't a marriage born of settling - this is one of those unions of crazy, mad love. The two of us have dove into this head first and, some might say, very quickly, but there has never been two people more cocky that they are going to be the greatest love story ever told. We make awful money and are overly sensitive and messily passionate. I am still etching out my place in this world and he can barely remember what month we are in half the time - we are a wreck and we are giddy about it! If we fail, which I doubt we will, we will fail with huge fireworks and only after walking through hell and fire together. Other than a few, short lived, moments of reckoning which I must admit I have had, I am not afraid.

The best part is, other than the fact that I am marrying my soul mate, I get to walk down the aisle with my best friend. No, not Leon (although a better friend I could not find)...I am talking about myself. With Jo I lost myself and with my other loves I was only half of myself...but in this partnership I have become the Biggest and Best Version of Myself and have fallin' back in love with my life. Me and Me can do this thing called Wife...or Business Owner or Daughter or Artist or maybe even one day Mother...but most importantly, through it all and no matter what happens, We have each other. And on Tuesday I celebrate that as much as anything else.

Now, I am going to have a bath. Please have no reservations for me as I am sure you do not. If there are any regrets it is that I am going through all of this wonderful Life Stuff without My 404 Gang and other beloved friends by my side. And knowing me I will shed a small tear for the single, multi-boy life I am leaving behind;-)

But that is just so me. I have always been a sucker for nostalgia.

Hot steamy water awaiting...