Thursday, June 14, 2007
Turning 31
Tomorrow I will leave 30 behind.
I intended to make my thirtieth year excellent. Full of risks and letting go and starting again and travel and getting my spine back. I am glad to say that I have succeeded. There has been a great many tears this year, but also more laughter than the year before and loads of great sex. I found myself back up on stage and have figured out - again - that I don't quite love the 'theatre contract' life as much as I once did. I spent most of my 30th year on Islands which was a true blessing and back in my home province which is also healing. I fell in love twice - once a little prematurely and once a little reluctantly - but have wound up in the grandest passion. I was able to let go of Jordan enough to allow this to happen, but also came to a place of peace with the knowing that I may always miss Jordan Lewin and may always ache a little inside when I think of him. My 30th year took me to Europe and sat me on Italian mountain tops and on Irish shores and THAT was the coolest thing I could have done for myself. This year has been packed with trying things I have never tried before with re-trying things that I had written off completely. It has been a good year...a great year...an unforgettable year. It was a year of Me - where boys played small, supporting roles - and I fondly bid it farewell.
So, hello 31. It is an odd age to be, 31. But I have good feelings about what's to come. A summer of romance and tap dancing cushioned by a weekly paycheque. The Teaching Experiment which is what I am coming to call the fall tour. Lots more travel AND a lot more settling back into my nest. Looking for and finding a cool, creative job that doesn't use my hamstrings and healing the poor ones that are currently wounded. Jumping totally off this Leon cliff and hoping, trusting, the net. Unknowns as always fill my future. What a way to live!! Embracing my new iPod and paying taxes for the first time because my annual income is actually over $20K.
31. Thrity freaking one. How in the heaven did I end up here so fast?
And does anyone know how to slow down this journey?
I intended to make my thirtieth year excellent. Full of risks and letting go and starting again and travel and getting my spine back. I am glad to say that I have succeeded. There has been a great many tears this year, but also more laughter than the year before and loads of great sex. I found myself back up on stage and have figured out - again - that I don't quite love the 'theatre contract' life as much as I once did. I spent most of my 30th year on Islands which was a true blessing and back in my home province which is also healing. I fell in love twice - once a little prematurely and once a little reluctantly - but have wound up in the grandest passion. I was able to let go of Jordan enough to allow this to happen, but also came to a place of peace with the knowing that I may always miss Jordan Lewin and may always ache a little inside when I think of him. My 30th year took me to Europe and sat me on Italian mountain tops and on Irish shores and THAT was the coolest thing I could have done for myself. This year has been packed with trying things I have never tried before with re-trying things that I had written off completely. It has been a good year...a great year...an unforgettable year. It was a year of Me - where boys played small, supporting roles - and I fondly bid it farewell.
So, hello 31. It is an odd age to be, 31. But I have good feelings about what's to come. A summer of romance and tap dancing cushioned by a weekly paycheque. The Teaching Experiment which is what I am coming to call the fall tour. Lots more travel AND a lot more settling back into my nest. Looking for and finding a cool, creative job that doesn't use my hamstrings and healing the poor ones that are currently wounded. Jumping totally off this Leon cliff and hoping, trusting, the net. Unknowns as always fill my future. What a way to live!! Embracing my new iPod and paying taxes for the first time because my annual income is actually over $20K.
31. Thrity freaking one. How in the heaven did I end up here so fast?
And does anyone know how to slow down this journey?
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