Thursday, March 15, 2007
Leon and Sylvie
Have started to explore Chemainus. I have even nailed down a library card. And I am truly enjoying my room mates, in and out of rehearsal. It is all very ... Dawson City... so far. Which, for those of you who know me, know is a very big compliment. Of course, my character is challenging me on so many levels and pushing a lot of buttons for me in rehearsal - the I SUCK AND TOTALLY CAN"T ACT buttons - but for the most part I am just trying to tell myself not to take it all too seriously and attempt to just have fun. So what if I end up getting three times the amount of notes than the rest of the cast? It is just a job.
And today was pay day, too, which was amazingly motivating. Of course, I don't get to enjoy a penny of it seeing that it is going to pay off my car bill. Can't believe that my brakes broke as my Welcome To Chemainus package. Still, I am blessed to be employed now and know that in only seven more days I will be getting another pay cheque. I love getting paid. I love money. Tonight I helped Leon set up his internet banking, explaining all along the new fandangled concepts of technology and money management. As Pat would have said to me last summer, Leon is a bit of a ludite...but an adorable ludite.
Something else we did today which was incredibly neat was this relationship buidling exercise. We sat across from a fellow actor cast in a role that our character has deep relationship with and we spent time really NOTICING them, looking at them very closely, taking them in. Then we had to shut our eyes and feel their faces with our hands to 'see' them in a whole different way. It was quite intimate and fascinating and awkward. Then we had to share some specific things with each other verbally. It was extremely bonding. It made me want to do it with Jax, to be honest. It would be good for many couples I would think...because sometimes we start to rush about and take each other for granted and stop really SEEING each other.
I miss Jax. But I must say It feels different, this missing, than it might have felt when I was ten years younger. In the past, I might have allowed my longing for a boy to soak up my Now, taking the place of any new experience happening around me. I would have chosen to stay in and write love poetry and ache instead of going out to the pub to make new friends. It isn't like that anymore. I intend to suck every last wonderful drop out of these six months ... and I will just carry Jax along with me, inside as I do it. This is not to say that I don't look forward to 2008 when I can return to a daily, simple life back in Vancouver and rest inside of our partnership. Ah, I am so lucky. From heartbroken and unemployed, to an in love actress on a beautiful Vancouver Island.
Perhaps that is my real Welcome To Chemainus package.
And today was pay day, too, which was amazingly motivating. Of course, I don't get to enjoy a penny of it seeing that it is going to pay off my car bill. Can't believe that my brakes broke as my Welcome To Chemainus package. Still, I am blessed to be employed now and know that in only seven more days I will be getting another pay cheque. I love getting paid. I love money. Tonight I helped Leon set up his internet banking, explaining all along the new fandangled concepts of technology and money management. As Pat would have said to me last summer, Leon is a bit of a ludite...but an adorable ludite.
Something else we did today which was incredibly neat was this relationship buidling exercise. We sat across from a fellow actor cast in a role that our character has deep relationship with and we spent time really NOTICING them, looking at them very closely, taking them in. Then we had to shut our eyes and feel their faces with our hands to 'see' them in a whole different way. It was quite intimate and fascinating and awkward. Then we had to share some specific things with each other verbally. It was extremely bonding. It made me want to do it with Jax, to be honest. It would be good for many couples I would think...because sometimes we start to rush about and take each other for granted and stop really SEEING each other.
I miss Jax. But I must say It feels different, this missing, than it might have felt when I was ten years younger. In the past, I might have allowed my longing for a boy to soak up my Now, taking the place of any new experience happening around me. I would have chosen to stay in and write love poetry and ache instead of going out to the pub to make new friends. It isn't like that anymore. I intend to suck every last wonderful drop out of these six months ... and I will just carry Jax along with me, inside as I do it. This is not to say that I don't look forward to 2008 when I can return to a daily, simple life back in Vancouver and rest inside of our partnership. Ah, I am so lucky. From heartbroken and unemployed, to an in love actress on a beautiful Vancouver Island.
Perhaps that is my real Welcome To Chemainus package.
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