Tuesday, August 01, 2006
A Day of Healing
I have had a happy day today.
Two highlights of my day so far: I started Wayne Dyers new book Inspiration - Your Ultimate Calling and like always when reading Mr. Dyer, I instantly feel like I have it in me to be a kinder more connected Krista. That is always a good thing. Second, I just got home from a matinee of An Incovenient Truth. Determined to see that movie, Shell agreed to attend it with me so that I didn't have to go it alone, which I was fully willing to do. We walked there, discovered little urban gems along the way, breathed and sighed and shook our heads and shed tears a little through the movie and walked home arm in arm only to stop for some coconut gelato. It was a profoundly moving cinematic experience and a delicious afternoon. Yum.
Actually, another highlight: spending two hours on a coffee house patio laughing my ass of with The Girlz. We made fun of ourselves and the fact that we are all in our 30's now with no real career labels attached to us, no husbands, no babies, no real estate and not a whole lot of 5 year plans in place to make any of those things happen. We used humour to heal the parts of our hearts that hurt when we wonder if we there is something wrong with us or if we are running out of time or what exactly it is that we are trying to achieve. We laughed because we have no answers and because we have each other and because sometimes you laugh instead of cry. I love those women more than they can know.
Interesting to note how happiness feels like a kind of excersise that my heart muscle isn't used to...sitting here I almost feel like my insides are sore from the joy. Perhaps it is like biking...if you are consistently biking you become conditioned, but if you bike a long hard ride after months of being inert, your body reacts like it has just been taken through some foreign terrain. I am unaclimatized to feeling happy! How's them apples?
So I am alone. So I am kinda terrified to date. So my job ends at the end of this month. So I am not completely clear what I want to do every single day for the rest of my life. So I don't own real estate. So I don't have the perfect husband carrying around my perfect baby in one of those perfect baby-carrier-papoose thingys. So what??!
I have the sun in the morning and the moon at night.
The second season of Grey's Anatomy to watch instead of dating.
Two more paycheques.
A big, central one bedroom with incredibly low rent.
The freedom to sleep in.
A building full of The Girlz.
And potential. Lots and lots of potential.
Today is a happy day.
Two highlights of my day so far: I started Wayne Dyers new book Inspiration - Your Ultimate Calling and like always when reading Mr. Dyer, I instantly feel like I have it in me to be a kinder more connected Krista. That is always a good thing. Second, I just got home from a matinee of An Incovenient Truth. Determined to see that movie, Shell agreed to attend it with me so that I didn't have to go it alone, which I was fully willing to do. We walked there, discovered little urban gems along the way, breathed and sighed and shook our heads and shed tears a little through the movie and walked home arm in arm only to stop for some coconut gelato. It was a profoundly moving cinematic experience and a delicious afternoon. Yum.
Actually, another highlight: spending two hours on a coffee house patio laughing my ass of with The Girlz. We made fun of ourselves and the fact that we are all in our 30's now with no real career labels attached to us, no husbands, no babies, no real estate and not a whole lot of 5 year plans in place to make any of those things happen. We used humour to heal the parts of our hearts that hurt when we wonder if we there is something wrong with us or if we are running out of time or what exactly it is that we are trying to achieve. We laughed because we have no answers and because we have each other and because sometimes you laugh instead of cry. I love those women more than they can know.
Interesting to note how happiness feels like a kind of excersise that my heart muscle isn't used to...sitting here I almost feel like my insides are sore from the joy. Perhaps it is like biking...if you are consistently biking you become conditioned, but if you bike a long hard ride after months of being inert, your body reacts like it has just been taken through some foreign terrain. I am unaclimatized to feeling happy! How's them apples?
So I am alone. So I am kinda terrified to date. So my job ends at the end of this month. So I am not completely clear what I want to do every single day for the rest of my life. So I don't own real estate. So I don't have the perfect husband carrying around my perfect baby in one of those perfect baby-carrier-papoose thingys. So what??!
I have the sun in the morning and the moon at night.
The second season of Grey's Anatomy to watch instead of dating.
Two more paycheques.
A big, central one bedroom with incredibly low rent.
The freedom to sleep in.
A building full of The Girlz.
And potential. Lots and lots of potential.
Today is a happy day.
« Blog Home