Thursday, July 27, 2006
Seems I'm Grounded...
...and I don't mean the 'one with the earth' kind of grounded.
I just read the comments from two shocked?upset?furious? ex's of the subject of my An Imaginary Trialogue post. One of the ex's also happens to my Ex. Seems the reaction to that post continues. Those that have witnessed my journey seem to be supportive of my extremely honest and public displays of anger and those who have not, are none too pleased. Fair enough. I have gone back and sensored the names out of that post. I have apologized. I am not going to feel ashamed for my anger or for my choice to write about it, but I am going to back up and refrain from using the full names of those who are innocently involved.
Thing is - and anyone who gets people will get this - my upset at bumping into this person everywhere I turn is not them, but about what they stand for. If you took all the stuff about yourself that you doubted or didn't like, if you took that part of yourself that criticizes everything you do and tells you that you don't measure up and then if you personified all these qualities into human form ---- and THEN made this personified form show up everywhere you looked - well, you would post a hideous post like I did, too. Anyway, I will stop trying to justify my actions. The post has been edited so that it does not use the actual names and I have also decided that I will not use full names from here on in. Will make for slightly more confusing stories. But so be it.
On a positive note: I painted today for the first time in my adult life. It was terrifying and wonderful and very messy. It is good for me to try things I am not good at...keeps me humble and open and flexible. The camp is going wonderfully and I am going to be spent, spent, spent by the time It is done. I look forward to coming back to Vancouver for a rest.
Also found out that a friend of mine - and with my new found wisdom I shant name names - is pregnant. Ah, pregnant. In this heat, I can't imagine.
...and I don't mean the 'blazing hot sun' kind of heat...
I just read the comments from two shocked?upset?furious? ex's of the subject of my An Imaginary Trialogue post. One of the ex's also happens to my Ex. Seems the reaction to that post continues. Those that have witnessed my journey seem to be supportive of my extremely honest and public displays of anger and those who have not, are none too pleased. Fair enough. I have gone back and sensored the names out of that post. I have apologized. I am not going to feel ashamed for my anger or for my choice to write about it, but I am going to back up and refrain from using the full names of those who are innocently involved.
Thing is - and anyone who gets people will get this - my upset at bumping into this person everywhere I turn is not them, but about what they stand for. If you took all the stuff about yourself that you doubted or didn't like, if you took that part of yourself that criticizes everything you do and tells you that you don't measure up and then if you personified all these qualities into human form ---- and THEN made this personified form show up everywhere you looked - well, you would post a hideous post like I did, too. Anyway, I will stop trying to justify my actions. The post has been edited so that it does not use the actual names and I have also decided that I will not use full names from here on in. Will make for slightly more confusing stories. But so be it.
On a positive note: I painted today for the first time in my adult life. It was terrifying and wonderful and very messy. It is good for me to try things I am not good at...keeps me humble and open and flexible. The camp is going wonderfully and I am going to be spent, spent, spent by the time It is done. I look forward to coming back to Vancouver for a rest.
Also found out that a friend of mine - and with my new found wisdom I shant name names - is pregnant. Ah, pregnant. In this heat, I can't imagine.
...and I don't mean the 'blazing hot sun' kind of heat...
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