More on the Bedbug Saga

The exterminators are coming in tomorrow.

I am having to be very aggressive to ensure that the bill doesn't become my problem and, needless to say, my property managers are none to happy about it. It is gonna mean alot of effort on my part, too, as I have to launder everything I can get my hands on AGAIN for the 14th time. This is so frustrating, but It will cause me just as much stress, time and money to move out at this point. At least I have Pender to go to for most of the summer...sleeping on my couch is getting old.

Other than that, life keeps going. The sun is trying to pop out its head and people are mowing their lawns. I feel very tired, on a soul level, and have been waking up consistently again with nausea and a heart full of saddness. I push ahead, make myself get out of bed, the works. Everyone tells me I am going to be okay. I know I seem much more okay than I really am. That is either the actress or the survivor in me, pretending, I can't decide. I miss my partnership. I hate being alone in the daily ins and outs of life. But these are just the same things that I have been feeling for a while now and I suppose, at some point, they will have to fade away.

I will keep you updated on how the bedbug extermination goes...I won't go out without a fight. That's for damn sure.