The Knowing

Often people ask 'how do you know you are in love?'

They often get the answer, 'you just know.'

Often people ask 'how did you know this was the person you were supposed to marry?'

They often get the answer, 'I just knew.

I have given this pat answer countless times, but what do I - and others - mean by it? What is this Knowing? Does this Knowing come right away or can it evolve slowly? If you don't have this Knowing, but are dallying more in the areana of 'Perhaps', then is that a sure sign you are pointed in the wrong direction? And can this Knowing be applied to career?

For instance, I have no such Knowing about Real Estate. I like that it can make me money, allow me set my own hours and I enjoy homes so that helps. It is viable and possible and the widest door open to me right now. But I do not LOVE it. If it were a person I would most definitely not feel comfortable committing to it for the rest of my life. So, does that mean I am wasting my time by settling and should be holding out for The One or do I stick with this For Now because it is what is in front of me?

And is it true that if Jordan doesn't have any knowing about Me and Us and Our Future currently, that he never will? Is it just fear that keeps us together when we are both secretly suspecting that Jordan's lack of The Knowing is irreversable, unchangable and the obvious point of exit?

What about not Knowing if children are something you want to have? Does a woman just Know? Can a woman abhor children for the first 30 years of her life and then, suddenly, one day, wake up to find herself dreaming of bassinets and rocking chairs? If your partner Knows that they don't want kids and you do, does their Knowing all but confirm that this bone of contention will ultimately break you up?

What exaclty do we Know?

And why haven't I felt a Knowing about ANYTHING in such a long time?