Monday, November 07, 2005
Phew! I am back.
Sorry about that recent dip into the dark side. I am back now.
The little monkey magnet that I have stuck to our fridge is giving me an evil grin. He is saying - are you really?
YES I AM. It is never my plan to sink into such a negative place. Being aware that what I concentrate on maifests...I know that if I keep on in this vein I will become - as Harv puts it - a crap magnet. I don't want to be a monkey OR a crap magnet. I want to be a magnet of all good things into my life...
OOPS. I said don't. Erase. What do I want? To write a colourful, loving letter back to my nieces. I want them to know how much I love them even though I am far away. I want to find new ways of making sure I am connecting with humans during my days. I want to end the incessant isolation that studying and working from home brings. I want crazy happiness.
I want a baby. Ok, perhaps not yet. But this is a new feeling for me. The want of a baby. A child. A family. I promise to get my Spiritual Abs back a bit, to manifest the life I know I deserve BEFORE getting preggo.
Although I must say that Jo and I have named the baby already. Parker Maclise Lewin. Parker Mac...would be his name...or hers. I personally believe that it is a wonderful name for both a boy or a girl. It has grown muchly on Jordan. Mom hates it.
"Don't you dare!" was her response when I told her about our name. "It sounds like a car."
Interestingly 'don't you dare' was the same response Mom had when I told her that If I was to ever have a wedding/ceremony/celebration - it would be non-alcoholic. "Why would you do that to your family, she asked?" Heehee.
So here is to what I do want.
To keep learning design. To finish my Real Estate course. To keep on with my Science of Mind studies. To cherish my relationship. To be part of a team where I can work hard and competently and be busy and important and make awesome money and, most of all, know that at the end of the day the work I put in went toward an organization that is helping people to find themselves. One day Finding Me will be my own company and in its own way It will touch millions of people's lives and remind them that ...
it is all good... the bad moods...the good moods.
The journey is beautiful whatever its colour.
Today its an orangey-yellow. And for that I give much thanks.
The little monkey magnet that I have stuck to our fridge is giving me an evil grin. He is saying - are you really?
YES I AM. It is never my plan to sink into such a negative place. Being aware that what I concentrate on maifests...I know that if I keep on in this vein I will become - as Harv puts it - a crap magnet. I don't want to be a monkey OR a crap magnet. I want to be a magnet of all good things into my life...
OOPS. I said don't. Erase. What do I want? To write a colourful, loving letter back to my nieces. I want them to know how much I love them even though I am far away. I want to find new ways of making sure I am connecting with humans during my days. I want to end the incessant isolation that studying and working from home brings. I want crazy happiness.
I want a baby. Ok, perhaps not yet. But this is a new feeling for me. The want of a baby. A child. A family. I promise to get my Spiritual Abs back a bit, to manifest the life I know I deserve BEFORE getting preggo.
Although I must say that Jo and I have named the baby already. Parker Maclise Lewin. Parker Mac...would be his name...or hers. I personally believe that it is a wonderful name for both a boy or a girl. It has grown muchly on Jordan. Mom hates it.
"Don't you dare!" was her response when I told her about our name. "It sounds like a car."
Interestingly 'don't you dare' was the same response Mom had when I told her that If I was to ever have a wedding/ceremony/celebration - it would be non-alcoholic. "Why would you do that to your family, she asked?" Heehee.
So here is to what I do want.
To keep learning design. To finish my Real Estate course. To keep on with my Science of Mind studies. To cherish my relationship. To be part of a team where I can work hard and competently and be busy and important and make awesome money and, most of all, know that at the end of the day the work I put in went toward an organization that is helping people to find themselves. One day Finding Me will be my own company and in its own way It will touch millions of people's lives and remind them that ...
it is all good... the bad moods...the good moods.
The journey is beautiful whatever its colour.
Today its an orangey-yellow. And for that I give much thanks.
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