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Friday, August 05, 2005

S.E.X.

I am 29 freaking years old. 29. And you know what my experience of sex has been, either through personal experience or through sharing in the experiences of my closest friends? Well, let me tell you.....

Couples who haven't physically touched in any way, shape or form for years; men that say all the right things to get laid and once they've achieved their goal become uninterested, women in so much genital pain that they can't even make it though a love making session, men that can't get or keep their erections, premature ejaculating, couples who have sex all the time but one or the other is secretly HATING it the whole time, women having sex in hopes of finding love, cocky men lovers who don't even know where your clitoris is, men who loooooove blow jobs but have a problem with going down on a woman, everyone having secret crushes and affairs to stimulate the passion in them that their partner neglects to stimulate, jack-rabbit sex, singles who are desperate to have sex even when they know that all the couples out there who could be having it, aren't.

Don't get me wrong...I understand as well as anyone else how mindblowing sex, or intimate and connected sex can cause such an ecstatic power in us that we are fueled for days. But everywhere I look is sexual dysfunction in some form and, interestingly, everywhere I look people are either alone, divorcing or mildly discontent in their current romantic situations.

So we all masturbate until even that becomes too much of a bother. We fill our time going back to school and taking classes so that we can learn another thousand megabites of information, but we have no clue how to make our sexual or romantic relationships work. I love the human race, I feel for us, but sometimes, in a cynical moment, I really think we can be pathetic.

Website is coming along. Job hunting is a killer. The sun is shining daily now and having Jen back consistently is wonderful.

My relationship is up and down. Swings to extremes. Some days I am sure we won't make it. Some days I want to have this man's children. It is a roller coaster and we are just these children of divorce clinging to the sides and trying not to fall out.

And maybe a really good orgasm could fix that. And maybe it couldn't.

But isn't worth a try??