An Excercise

My homework for this last SOM class is to write down the question Who Am I? and keep answering it for a full 5 minutes.

So here it goes:

Who Am I?

I am an honour role student, i am a natural born leader, i am an extraordinary speaker, i am often very afraid, i am smart as a whip, i am the perky blonde, i am the tough survivor of an abusive childhood, i am a MacLise, i am Jordan's girlfriend and grateful partner, i am a Mac user, i am a peacemaker, i am a healer, i am a councellor, i am a storyteller first and foremost, i am a passionate romantic, i am a talker, i am an unemployed, over-qualified, undereducated statistic of my generation, i am an educator, i am a searcher of Truth, i am purely Spirit, i am a Metaphysician, i am an unhealthy eater, i am my mother's daughter, i am Too Much, i am a quitter, i am a quick learner, i am a good person, i am the devil to my Ex's, i am a loyal, effort-making friend, i am a woman who could stand to lose some weight, i am a musician and a writer, i am a self-centred 28 year old, i am One with It All, i am doing the best i can, i am a soul with high expectations, i am both heart centred and head centred, i am a Gemini, i am a performer, i am an organizer, i am a seeker of safety, i am a home decorator, i am someone without definition, i am Perfect, Whole and Complete and i am someone who is not so sure of that...

Phew. That wasn't hard. 5 minutes goes fast when you're having fun. Yikes.

I am sitting in the sun right now, which is making it tres hard to see my laptop screen. It is a beautiful, sunny, Vancouver spring day and i feel so blessed and so at odds all at the same time that i am trying to just sit with the duality of it and not just take a nap to escape that which doesn't make sense. I am happy, but since my 'talk' with Jordan i have a sense of foreboding that is hovering over me...like a little girl with that uncanny sense that something bad is about to happen.

Am i creating the monsters that lurk in my closet or are there really some scary creatures under my bed just waiting to pounce?

I am getting sunburned.
I am sick of waiting.
I am done for today.

I am.