Thursday, March 17, 2005
Citizen Girl
I am always hunting for that book...you know the one...the one that is going to make you laugh, make you cry, speak directly to you. Like the perfect song, the perfect book makes you wonder if someone had actually been watching your life when they wrote it...
I am currently reading that book.
It is CITIZEN GIRL written by two women my age, Emma McLaughlin and Nicola Kraus. They co-authoured the bestseller The Nanny Diaries. I liked that book, but i LOVE this one. I love it. Not only do i love it, i should have written it. It sounds like me, it smells like me, it is me.
The book is about being a twenty-something female with some general administrative skills and lots of brains looking for -- what else? -- a job. Yes, she is looking for her DREAM JOB, but more than that she is looking for ANY BLOODY JOB, because she is unfortunately jammed perfectly between over-qualified and under-educated. It weaves a shockingly realistic tale of paying off student loans with credit cards while the 75 resumes you have sent out in the past 3 weeks have garnered you only one interview. Of course, at this one interview are eleventy gillion other twenty-something females sitting in the reception area clutching their leather portfolios and smoothing their ponytails. It cuttingly describes the hours of bullshit that flood out of your mouth as you try to act excited about sticking color coded tabs on manilla file folders or feign educated opinions on the upswing of current investment markets. One paragraph i laugh, one paragraph i cry. I laugh because i know we all find our way in the end, but i cry because i know so well how much it can hurt getting there.
I, too, have rationed 6 almonds a day and invited myself to people's houses in hopes of a free meal.
Things are not that desperate in my life right now. This unemployment feels slightly different, more confidant, more hopeful. But i am still being overlooked for positions that i am more than qualified for and wracked with doubt about diving into the start of my own venture. Some moments i feel lost, some moments i feel sure and some moments i go numb.
I cling to the moments i am sure and to the harbour i can find in my boyfriend's arms, that is, when he isn't drowning in his own busy-ness.
I look foward to mom coming on Friday and to going back to Toronto on Thursday.
This Citizen Girl is blogging her way through yet another Unknown.
She dedicates this day to other Citizen Girls out there. Happy St. Patrick's Day and happy hunting...
...and remember, it could be worse.
There could be only 5 almonds.
I am currently reading that book.
It is CITIZEN GIRL written by two women my age, Emma McLaughlin and Nicola Kraus. They co-authoured the bestseller The Nanny Diaries. I liked that book, but i LOVE this one. I love it. Not only do i love it, i should have written it. It sounds like me, it smells like me, it is me.
The book is about being a twenty-something female with some general administrative skills and lots of brains looking for -- what else? -- a job. Yes, she is looking for her DREAM JOB, but more than that she is looking for ANY BLOODY JOB, because she is unfortunately jammed perfectly between over-qualified and under-educated. It weaves a shockingly realistic tale of paying off student loans with credit cards while the 75 resumes you have sent out in the past 3 weeks have garnered you only one interview. Of course, at this one interview are eleventy gillion other twenty-something females sitting in the reception area clutching their leather portfolios and smoothing their ponytails. It cuttingly describes the hours of bullshit that flood out of your mouth as you try to act excited about sticking color coded tabs on manilla file folders or feign educated opinions on the upswing of current investment markets. One paragraph i laugh, one paragraph i cry. I laugh because i know we all find our way in the end, but i cry because i know so well how much it can hurt getting there.
I, too, have rationed 6 almonds a day and invited myself to people's houses in hopes of a free meal.
Things are not that desperate in my life right now. This unemployment feels slightly different, more confidant, more hopeful. But i am still being overlooked for positions that i am more than qualified for and wracked with doubt about diving into the start of my own venture. Some moments i feel lost, some moments i feel sure and some moments i go numb.
I cling to the moments i am sure and to the harbour i can find in my boyfriend's arms, that is, when he isn't drowning in his own busy-ness.
I look foward to mom coming on Friday and to going back to Toronto on Thursday.
This Citizen Girl is blogging her way through yet another Unknown.
She dedicates this day to other Citizen Girls out there. Happy St. Patrick's Day and happy hunting...
...and remember, it could be worse.
There could be only 5 almonds.
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