Friday, March 11, 2005
Buck Naked.
Wondering some things tonight. Some of which are weighing pretty heavily on my heart. I offer them, scattered, to you...
How do the people in my world feel about nudity? All levels of it. Do y'all like being nude all alone for no apparant reason? Do you enjoy looking at yourselves in the mirror nude? How soon is soon enough to become naked with a new love interest? Is total nudity sexy or is partial nudity much sexier? If the world was perfect would we all walk around naked all the time? And what about those poor souls during a Saskatchewan winter?
Do you think it is cool if your partner enjoys spending time with his buddies naked in certain circumstances - a skinny dip at a friend's cottage, a hot tub after a dinner party? And can he be naked with his female buddies in a non-sexual way? Is there such thing as non-sexual nudity in our Western society?
And what do you do if you finally give in and jump into love with someone fully and completely only to find that now that they 'have' you, they are losing interest? How does one protect their heart from loving someone who is addicted to the thrill of the chase, but loses passion for the object of their affection once that object is hooked?
Is protecting one's heart EVER a good idea? Are hearts made to risk broken-ness? Can i survive another broken one? What possessed me to get myself into this mess?
How is it that i am back to being 18 again, dripping in the feeling that i would DIE if i lost Him? Am i getting back to a faithful innocence where it hurts more because you give more or am i regressing?
Why can't i find more female friends in Vancouver?
What do i want to do with my life? Should i take a Real Estate course and just start teaming up with Cyn and Pat and other REAs and start selling? Do i pursue this teaching thing? Do i just keep applying for random admin jobs to keep the money coming while i stay focused on studying Science of Mind and becoming a Practioner? How do i keep in the faith that The Universe will take care of all of this for me?
Is everyone in the world breaking up?
Am i gonna be ok?
Do you promise?
How do the people in my world feel about nudity? All levels of it. Do y'all like being nude all alone for no apparant reason? Do you enjoy looking at yourselves in the mirror nude? How soon is soon enough to become naked with a new love interest? Is total nudity sexy or is partial nudity much sexier? If the world was perfect would we all walk around naked all the time? And what about those poor souls during a Saskatchewan winter?
Do you think it is cool if your partner enjoys spending time with his buddies naked in certain circumstances - a skinny dip at a friend's cottage, a hot tub after a dinner party? And can he be naked with his female buddies in a non-sexual way? Is there such thing as non-sexual nudity in our Western society?
And what do you do if you finally give in and jump into love with someone fully and completely only to find that now that they 'have' you, they are losing interest? How does one protect their heart from loving someone who is addicted to the thrill of the chase, but loses passion for the object of their affection once that object is hooked?
Is protecting one's heart EVER a good idea? Are hearts made to risk broken-ness? Can i survive another broken one? What possessed me to get myself into this mess?
How is it that i am back to being 18 again, dripping in the feeling that i would DIE if i lost Him? Am i getting back to a faithful innocence where it hurts more because you give more or am i regressing?
Why can't i find more female friends in Vancouver?
What do i want to do with my life? Should i take a Real Estate course and just start teaming up with Cyn and Pat and other REAs and start selling? Do i pursue this teaching thing? Do i just keep applying for random admin jobs to keep the money coming while i stay focused on studying Science of Mind and becoming a Practioner? How do i keep in the faith that The Universe will take care of all of this for me?
Is everyone in the world breaking up?
Am i gonna be ok?
Do you promise?
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