Thursday, February 03, 2005
The Profound Blonde Leaps Again
In one hour i will be sitting down with my boss and explaining that i will be resigning from this position as of Feb. 28th, 2005.
I will be doing this without any guarantee that the company will find me a more suited position. I will be doing this with the understanding that i could very well be going into March totally unemployed. I will be doing this without an already in place net. I will be doing this with blind faith that it will all work out perfectly.
I can not stay in this position. I know that. But i am nervous and anxious. I like these people and i like this company. I really like my boss. She treats me like gold. I sit here and everything is heightened. The silver spoon in the watery pink sugar milk from this morning's cereal seems surreally beautiful. The quietness under the regular sounds of the office is sooooo quiet. I am experiencing f.e.a.r. ----- feeling excited and ready. And a little nauseous.
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Aaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnddddddddddd...i just quit. It was easy and non-painful and i love my boss. She just totally understood and offerred me a position that may be starting in August if nothing comes up before then...which is sweet. She also assurred me that while i look for other work 20/20 might be able to use me on a temporary basis off and on when the need arises. Again, so sweet. Already the Universe is taking care of me. I feel good. I would love for a brilliant opportunity to arise for me before August, but i know that what is perfect and right is unfolding before me without any help needed.
I also am back to thinking about school. Similiar thoughts to last summer. If i had a University degree i would go to Teacher's College in a snap. It is a general degree that i could use to specify in the Arts world and work my way up to teaching adults - who are what i want to teach. It also makes sense if i eventually want to run a Science of Mind Centre. AND i also think about Massage Therapy. I just know how damn good i would be at it, how i could use it to heal, to serve, to connect and to support financially my other dreams like running a Centre. It is just so expensive. As would be starting from scratch at University to get an Education degree.
Universe, if you could send me the funds for school that would allow me to learn new skills without incurring debt, i would be open to recieving them. Thank you. I know it is done. This or something better. And so it is.
Until then, i will try to enjoy my next two paycheques with a gusto.
Profound enough for ya?
I will be doing this without any guarantee that the company will find me a more suited position. I will be doing this with the understanding that i could very well be going into March totally unemployed. I will be doing this without an already in place net. I will be doing this with blind faith that it will all work out perfectly.
I can not stay in this position. I know that. But i am nervous and anxious. I like these people and i like this company. I really like my boss. She treats me like gold. I sit here and everything is heightened. The silver spoon in the watery pink sugar milk from this morning's cereal seems surreally beautiful. The quietness under the regular sounds of the office is sooooo quiet. I am experiencing f.e.a.r. ----- feeling excited and ready. And a little nauseous.
********************************************************************************
Aaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnddddddddddd...i just quit. It was easy and non-painful and i love my boss. She just totally understood and offerred me a position that may be starting in August if nothing comes up before then...which is sweet. She also assurred me that while i look for other work 20/20 might be able to use me on a temporary basis off and on when the need arises. Again, so sweet. Already the Universe is taking care of me. I feel good. I would love for a brilliant opportunity to arise for me before August, but i know that what is perfect and right is unfolding before me without any help needed.
I also am back to thinking about school. Similiar thoughts to last summer. If i had a University degree i would go to Teacher's College in a snap. It is a general degree that i could use to specify in the Arts world and work my way up to teaching adults - who are what i want to teach. It also makes sense if i eventually want to run a Science of Mind Centre. AND i also think about Massage Therapy. I just know how damn good i would be at it, how i could use it to heal, to serve, to connect and to support financially my other dreams like running a Centre. It is just so expensive. As would be starting from scratch at University to get an Education degree.
Universe, if you could send me the funds for school that would allow me to learn new skills without incurring debt, i would be open to recieving them. Thank you. I know it is done. This or something better. And so it is.
Until then, i will try to enjoy my next two paycheques with a gusto.
Profound enough for ya?
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