New Year's Resolu...blah, blah, blah.

I'm not making new year's resolutions this year. Uncharacteristic for a Type A tornado that is comforted by lists.

But I just don't feel like it. And I'm gonna honour that.

It'd be great if I began carving a path in my life for my physical fitness. Moving, playing, strengthening by body is overtly & obviously the next piece for me to embrace on my health journey.

But there is something I know about me. Until the shift happens, I ain't gonna stick to nuthin'. Like my eating. I always knew I ate crap. And I always knew I was 15 pounds overweight. And I always dreamed of eating healthy food, being thin, and the whole thing feeling easy. But for twelve years I did nothing about it. Why? Because I wasn't willing yet to change what I needed to change. I wasn't willing to commit. To let go.

Until I was.

I could say that I will exercise, lift weights, start a yoga routine, walk daily, try crossfit, go back to dance classes...but I'm pretty sure I'm not actually willing - yet - to make the commitment. So, I'll open up to the possibility of moving more, of at least considering it more. That's all I got in me to resolve.

I could also kick my own ass and make some deadlines around creating a new site for myself - one that is solely focused on my online business. But, gawd, I really still don't clearly know what that business will be. Coaching. I think. But my visions are unfocused. And even if I try to force myself to make some clear decisions by a certain day, I'm almost certain to fail.

The aggressive verbs just aren't working for me right now.

It just feels like, this year, I gotta chill out a bit and let things come. My conscious part in the creation? Relaxing. Enjoying what is in front of me. Being unapologetic for choosing to do the things that make me happy, even if those things are unimpressive, uncool, even slightly embarrassing. Not filling my mind with positive thoughts, or managing the negative ones, but just letting my mind BE.

If my life never got "better" than it is today, I want to be at peace with that. Heck, I want to be thrilled by that.

Because I've got it pretty darn good.

So, no resolutions this year.

This year I stew:-)